It's currently 4:32am as I sit in a comfy armchair- safe, warm, and loved in the comfortable Chicago suburbs. Where I'm heading is nothing like here. I just finished packing my baggage and now I just need to pick up some gatorade and charcoal tablets and I'll be all done.
I was so excited to sign up to go to India two months ago when I decided to do an AIESEC internship. Jaipur, the Pink City, sounded beautiful and exotic with it's ancient palaces and other beautiful sites. Yet as the months turned to weeks, to days, and now to hours I struggle with a load of nerves. As of right now I don't know where exactly I'll be living or what my job description is. I'm going with my expectations and my sights wide open- trying to be ready to embrace whatever comes. The unknown both exhilarates and terrifies me at the same time.
In the midst of my fears the same verse that has comforted me this whole quarter reminds me of where my security lies. In Matthew 6:33-34 Jesus says "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." I am learning to seek God above all else in my life and am beginning to realize this is my ultimate purpose in Jaipur. Though all else may be uncertain- my community, my friends, my living arrangements- God is steadfast and unchanging. Nothing that has happened or will happen can surprise Him. My only purpose is to serve and love Him and put His kingdom above my own.
This summer will change me in more ways than I sure I can possibly see right now but I am ready to take these changes and challenges on as I head onto the plane with the love and support of my family and friends, but most of all the faithfulness of my God.
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